What is wrong?

Okay, I know this blog is going to lame, but it's like, I don't know. I just don't think i'm any speacil. I know i'm not like anybody else, but, uh, i'm so confused. Okay so today i tried asking out my friend Rachelle. But as you probably would have guessed. She rejected me. Every girl I have tried asking out since high school has said no. Is it because i'm ugly? Or maybe i'm just doing something wrong. I thought that all of this was supposed to come naturally, but I guess not, I can't trust anybody anymore, and I guess it's effecting more than I thought. I'm really lame, and I don't need anybody but myself. Nobody really cares about me anyways.

Me?

Well I usally only use this on some occasions. But I don't know. It just seems like my life is just werid. I don't know what my feelings are. I don't talk to my friends that much. I just feel like I don't know myslef at all. And I should know who I am, right? I'm just not right. ha, it feels like i'm an adult, but ever since that time I had to start over. Maybe I was re born. But now, who knows maybe i'm just acting crazy. Who knows, there is always tomorow right.

Another thing!

Okay well since the last time I have been on. Things have gotton crazy. I have gotton a girlfriend. But the only problem is that she is just idk. She just needs to calm down and please herself. Not in a nasty way. She has been worrying me lately and I don't know what to do. To tell someone or just stay queit. For right now I want to keep going thur life like it never happend. But I guess I can't Well all for now. I will write back later to tell you how things are going.

Dear blogger.

Hey I don't ussally use this site unless I have something to say. Well today has been bad. I don't like it. My mom's boyfriends kid was being an ass and they didn't do anything about it. I don't know what to do anymore. It's like I don't even matter. I don't know how i'm going to get thur the next 4 years. I have some what fake friends and there is really no one to talk to about it. I'm on the tennis team now. I haven't made any friends with with any of them. Like we don't hang out unless it's a tennis practice, you know? Well anyway were on spring break, still having dad issues. idk? Life just preety much sucks in general. Still having to find ways to keep living. 4 more years. Wish me luck!

Still things

Okay well i'm still here at the house. It's been getting worse. I dislike the new guy as much as the others. Well since no one is going to look at these anyways. It's just that omg can life get much harder. It's not worse. cause i have alot of good things. It's just I dislike todd. Is his name. He is fat. And stinks. It's like a elephant! lol Well I have to go. But just as a warning I haven't been able to get my feelings out lately. well wish me luck

Sorry I haven't been on in a while!

Well we moved, mom got divorced. Got a new boyfriend. His kids are bratish. I don't like him. And me and my mom have been pending weither or not to move out. I've tried to lie and to make things hard for everyone but it just doesn't work! I guess I just have to put up with it. For now. We have been talking about it with my consular. (long storie). And idk. It seems were getting no were! I don't like my mom's new boyfriend. And I never will! He is a jerk and he is fat! I'm sorry i'm being so mean. I'm not usally like this. But I have had it with him. And his family.

Here it is.

So things may be getting better with my step mom er i mean dad! lol But you never know when he is going to be back on his period! I swear he has one every day! I have been recently going to the high school for a half high school credit, so i am away from the house, but also I have to watch my little sister! Which means my summer is over! Better start getting used to getting up at 6 am! Also that means no more step dad! yeah!